In a slump...

ill make this short considering it's unlikely entertaining to read a long rant xD .. this is really more for me than for you xD .. just wanna get this out of my chest, i guess...

got a 200.5 out of 250 on my first organic test.. which, yes, is relatively bad.. i mean, sure it equates to a B still... barely, though.. 80.2... lowest grade i've ever gotten in my entire college life xD .. i need to average roughly 234/250 on the rest of the tests for me to get an A.. which is TOUGH.. and knowing it was supposed to be the easiest of all organic tests is not the least bit encouraging...

so yeah... you know.. bugs me a bit.. but early this morning today... i get a 5 out of 10 ( 6, if he's merciful...) on a physics quiz.. which there's a ton of, so it's not that much of a big deal.. but it's the first one i haven't gotten a 10 on.. and it's timing is TOO perfect.. just a day after i find out how bad i did on my organic test xD .. digs that slump a little deeper..

and then in organic lab this afternoon, i get a 48 out of 67.. which is a 71.6... barely passing.. pasang awa... i just freakin' missed one single carbon and it screws the molecular weight and all the calculations after that.. ugh xD .. it would've been fine if it was a weekly quiz... but there's only 3 in the entire semester... so i'm kinda in deep sludge xD ..

it's funny cuz some people tell me to just suck it up and do better next time xD .. sure they're right.. but what utterly annoys me is this one little thing.. the one major difference between them and i... they have a life... (haha) .. i kinda don't... school, work, and homework IS pretty much my life xD .. so i can't just settle for not getting the A i'm sacrificing my life for.. ya know what i mean? xD

sorry.. i don't mean to make it sound like it's the end of the world... and mom and dad, don't worry i'm fine.. xD .. i just feel so unsettled.. and i probably will keep feeling this way until i get myself out of this slump.. which is hopefully a good thing cuz it'll drive me to work harder.. or well... at least it should... otherwise, it's simply vexing xD

so yeah.. in summation.. .. .. i'm in a slump.. a ditch.. no biggie.. i hope.. i'll letcha know when i get out of it...